::sigh:: I realized today that a lot of the friends I had last year really don’t give a rip about my life anymore…. Nothing personal… I just realized that we are now simply getting to be aquaintances instead of friends… I no longer get to hang out with them… I no longer get to hear about their lives and share mine with them… I’m not really sure how to feel about it all.
This whole RA thing really takes up my time like nothing I’d ever expected… and living in a single room only lessens the “other people” contact I have. Yes I have a floor of 48 residents whom I have regular contact with… but they see me as the RA and very few see me as a college student…
So here I am working a full time school schedule, a near full time schedule at CedarCreek, and a near full time schedule as an RA…. any free time I have goes to developing my relationship with Sarah…. what can I say though??? If I have to prioritize my life, the woman I plan on marrying has to get the time I can offer! I don’t regret that at all. I just wish I had more time to hang out with my old friends…
I don’t know… I’m naturally a loner kind of guy… I can survive on my own and all, but something still cries out for those late night spontaneous Zzas runs… the crazy pranks on the neighbors… the group lunches and dinners… bah. I wonder if they ever even think, “Hey, what happened to Brent?” Somehow I think they are hardcore thinking that I ditched them when I started dating Sarah… but that couldn’t be farther from the truth…. This stupid RA job sucks the time you have and makes it pretty much obsolete… Thus the reason why I’m not returning as and RA next year. I’m going to try and live in a single room somewhere else in Offenhauer, but I can do without the work. I wish I could live in an apartment with some guys next year… but alas, no cash to finance such a deal. Stupid debt. 
ANYWHO… I don’t say this to get people feeling sorry for me… I don’t want pity… I just want to vent and get people who read this to think about their own lives… Hold close the times you have with these friends of college… Change appears quick and often without notice. Swiftly it sweeps away our life and we are left wondering what happened. Are you really going to stay in touch with your friends ten years from now? How about five? Two? Man… you never see it coming. I didn’t.
Mood: Looking ahead… but not too far. 
Music: Counting Crows – A Good Year For The Roses
1 Comment
yeah… college friends i dunno… they do seem to change quickly… thats what i found when i went atleast. I’ve been gone just a year from school, yet i leave quite close to it, and have visited… but still I only really have stayed in contact with 2 people. which is alright odds i guess… since i started out knowing my floor and half of another… oh well. Some friendships will last, and some won’t… the thing is you dont know which those ones will be. My closest friends still after 3 years out of high school, are the ones I grew up with in my youth group at church… I love those people! Hope that next year you will be able to maybe revive friendships or make lotsa new ones! when you have the time to actually invest in more peoples lives… friendship is definitly a time taker. Well thats quite the comment…
Isa better get back to sleep!
~natz