To our unborn child:
Our Lord is in control when I am not. Our Lord is in control when I think I am, and for this I am eternally grateful.
You already know how much you were loved. You already know how much you are and will be missed. You already know the love in our hearts. One day we’ll meet, and I’ll hold you for the very first time. And though I don’t understand why things had to be this way, we’ll laugh and our tears will be of joy instead of sorrow.
For the things I will not get the chance to teach you. For all your firsts I will not get the chance to experience. For the memories we will never share… I weep. The tears are temporary. The pain will get easier, but will always remain, dulled by time… and eventually will be but a distant shadow as we are introduced on the streets of gold.
Through this I take refuge and strength in our mutual Father. He blesses us with your siblings. I can hardly wait until you get to meet them. I can hardly wait until we can all meet and our family will be whole.
Would you have been like me? Would you have been like your Mommy? Would you have liked sports or school or dogs or the color blue? Would your laugh have forced a smile on my face? Would you have me wrapped around your finger when you told me, “but I LOVE you daddy”? Would I have chased away your fears and made your favorite lunches? Would you have liked technology, animals, singing, dancing, drawing, swimming, or telling jokes? Would your smile have melted my heart? I can’t wait to meet you someday.
But oh the sorrow that can strike at a moment’s notice…
How do you prepare for this? How do you survive this?
—– Deliver Me – David Crowder —–
Deliver me out of the sadness
Deliver me from all the madness
Deliver me courage to guide me
Deliver me Your strength inside me
All of my life
I’ve been in hiding
Wishing there was someone just like You
Now that You’re here
Now that I’ve found You
I know that You’re the One to pull me through
Deliver me loving and caring
Deliver me giving and sharing
Deliver me this cross that I’m bearing
Oh, deliver me
Jesus, Jesus how I trust You
How I’ve proved You o’er and o’er
Jesus, Jesus precious Jesus
Deliver me
Come and pull me through
Come pull me through
—– Only You – David Crowder —–
Take my heart, I Lay it down
At the feet of you whose crowned
Take my life, I’m letting go
I lift it up to You who’s throned
And I will worship You, Lord
Only You, Lord
And I will bow down before You
Only You Lord
Take my fret, take my fear
All I have, I’m leaving here
Be all my hopes, be all my dreams
Be all my delights, be my everything
And It’s just you and me here now
Only you and me here now
You should see the view
When it’s only You
—–
I look forward to someday.
All my love, Daddy
P.S. Put in a good word for me with the Big Guy. 😉