Word.  The computer network at CedarCreek is almost done.    There is a lot of work to do yet though (network cubicles, set-up server, get software licenses…).  So I’m far from done but I’ll just be happy when everyone has internet and email again.

Sarah and I had a fun talk last night about “us” and stuff… She rocks and I’m so glad that God brought us together… I really hope we get married someday, but that is totally not even up to my will… ::sigh::  oh well… relax, let go, watch God do his thing.

I’m finishing off some major reports for my classes so that’s a plus… the less work on my mind the better.  Stress has eaten me alive this year and I’m only 2 months into the 9 of the school year… .  I’m starting to think about apartments possibly for next summer and hopefully for next school year as well.  I need to find people to live with.  Matt was talking about setting up another “Guys” apartment back by the other H2O apartments… I’d be down with that.  I don’t know if he’d WANT me there… but hey, we’ll find out!  I just don’t want to commute 30 min every day for school… especially if Sarah and I are still together.

The only thing holding me back from finding a place right now is that I don’t know if I will be “full-time” at CedarCreek by then or not.  I can’t afford it if I’m not.  I’m supposed to find out in November if I will be able to go full-time next year.  Cross your fingers and pray for me, would ya?  If I don’t, then I have to stay full-time school and take out another 7,000 dollars worth of loans…   GRRRRR!  MONEY SUCKS!

Oh well, I’m not worried about it all… just frustrated.  I will be fine in the end.  I know that.  Speakin of frustration.. My friend Tara’s wedding was supposed to be in 10 days and it got canned… THAT has to suck.  Don’t know why, but she said it has to wait until April or May now.  OUCH!

ok… i’m tired and hungry…. and have paperwork to do… (JOY!)  so I’m gonna split.

Mood:  Comme ci, Comme ca. (“so-so” for all you NON french people.)
Music:  James Taylor – Fire and Rain

So the Dashboard concert was AWESOME.  Great time.  He did a sweet rendition of “Ender Will Save Us All” where the crowd sang a good third of it…   Possibly my favorite of the night… but then again, there was an AMAZINGLY emotional “Remember To Breathe” and a very cool adlib style of “Hands Down”… … “Saints And Sailors” opened up the night on a highly powerful note of ROCK… the whole crowd of a sold-out Detroit State Theater was yelling the lyrics right back at him…

Hot Rod Circuit and Ash were the opening acts… but when Ash didn’t make it to the show on time due to car troubles… Dashboard decided to just play an extra long set… darn… thats a bummer…

An all accoustic (no band, just Chris and a guitar) version of “The Sharp Hint of New Tears” was a cool crowd sing-a-long time.  When they finished up the set list they left only to return to an encore performance of the entire “So Impossible EP”  He played all four songs in order from start to finish telling a story… sweet finish.

THEN, BGSU’s football team pulled off an AMAZING comeback in an overtime game of do or die with Western Michigan on Saturday night… we won 48-45 in OT.  We’re now undefeated at 7-0 and are moving up in the national rankings… We were 23rd and 25th before tonight… First ranking since 1985.  BUT we should move up now that we’ve won again and still averaged around 50 points a game… we’ve got a CRUSHING team this year.  Very exciting time to be here and able to brag that our team doesn’t suck for once!

Sarah and I decided against celebrating “Sweetest Day” or whatever it is…  It’s a hallmark holiday that makes me waste money… but the best part is, SHE was the one to bring up the idea of skipping it… thus I wasn’t a jerk.   And hey, I’ve spent enough money on concert tickets for the three shows we’re going to… er… one we went to and two more to come… but I still felt kinda bad not buying her anything for today just cuz I wanted to… she’s awesome.  very very very… awesome… and so dang cute!  The scary part is, she knows it… and she can use it against me… manipulation by women… VERY dangerous…

My palm pilot is here! yay!  Nerdery is fully functioning now.  I’m gonna have “Palm Intercourse” with Ed and Ben tomorrow at the Creek.  They’re gonna beam me stuff… OK, alas, I must leave you (like anyone reads this!) for it is 1:16am and I have to get up at 7:30 for work.  Peace to the izzout!  I’m GONE!

Mood:  Very Very Very at peace… (and oh so tired.)
Music:  duh… Dashboard Confessional… any song will do.

CO-OP REPORT (14 Pages) = DONE
Tech 302 REPORT (7 Pages) = DONE
SLEEP (IN THE LAST TWO DAYS) = NONE

No… I really DID get sleep… just not enough.  I’m tired.  Thus I’m going to bed.  It’s 2:10am.  DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL CONCERT TODAY!!!!!! YAY!  

My arm smells like Sarah.  I hugged her and now I smell like girl.  Not that it’s a bad thing… she smells great… but when I smell like a girl… that’s bad.  Cuz then I get beat up…. ah who am I kiddin… No one is gonna beat me up.  I smell too pretty.

ok… it’s funny now that two of my friends are applying to be RA’s… well… one that I speak to regularly and one from last year… either way… it’s fun.  Yay for them.

ok… I’m gonna have to say the nay-no on expandin further.  It’s gettin late so I’ll catch your pannie on the rennicon.  Catch ya later my damie.  Seppa-town.

Mood:  YAY!
Music:  Our Lady Peace – Innocent

OK… so a lot has happened since my last entry of depressive rambling… Things have taken a turn for the better.  I’m still busy like a crazy boy, but I’m doing ok.  Sarah and I are getting along well, school is still really stressful with report deadlines and all… RA stuff has slowed a bit (THANK GOD!)  and I have a Dashboard Confessional concert to go to tomorrow…  freakin yeah for that.

Although I did get reamed for canceling on a meeting I was supposed to go to at 3:30pm tomorrow… But hey, what are ya gonna do?  I have tickets and 7 other people waiting on me.  The show is in Detroit so I have to leave earlier than I thought about ahead of time.  My bad.  I understand that and I apologized, but my supervisor was just ticked in general and so she reamed all of us at a meeting for “not re-organizing our lives around this job”… … ya know what… too bad.  I need the break.  I was here all fall break and haven’t been out of this place besides work in months.  I think that I have done a KICK BUTT job on my duties and have provided all that has been asked of me and MORE until now.  So if I “let the team down” for once… get over it.  I’m human.

::sigh::  frustration still comes in many forms around here.  ANYWAY, my palm pilot should be here soon which will prevent me from making bad scheduling conflicts in the future (hopefully), and I DO get to see a concert… with friends… outside of BGSU… so that rocks!  Yay for Dashboard.  OK, it’s 3:30am and I have a LOT of work to do tomorrow… so peace to tha izzout.  I’m gone.

mood:  Still kickin despite many many tranquilizer darts to the butt.
music:  Good Charlotte – Motivation Proclamation

Why does life have to be so dang frustrating???  Why can’t everything just be based on the “WAY IT IS” and accepted?  Why do people have to have different views…. opinions… without knowing what they’re talking about in the first place?  I’m so sick and tired of getting screwed over by people who don’t have any room to talk in the first place… GRRRRR!  Differing opinions are fine… just don’t screw my life over because you don’t like me…. I leave you well enough alone… I respect you… all I ask is for that in return…. We don’t have to love each other, just co-exist without killing each other… so what part of that calls for you messing with MY life?

I know all the above makes no sense to most of you… and I know that all of that isn’t really even valid in this case…  I’ve just been around too many situations lately where people are being bad-mouthed (me being one of them) by others who don’t even know that person.  I understand that we look out for friends and share opinions we’ve made to “alert” our friends… but for the love of God… back them up with some kind of fact before you just start rumors and hurt people.  I’m sick of getting looked down on for something I’m not.  I’m sick of going through circumstances for rumors others have spread… I’m sick of seeing MY friends put thruogh the same fate as I am going through right now… GOSSIP IS A SIN!  BACK YOUR CLAIMS, WORRIES, SUSPICIONS, ETC. UP WITH EVIDENCE!!!  no more… “hey guess what I heard,” and “yeah but I think…”

ok… ok… venting complete.  You don’t have to agree with me here.. I’m frustrated… just show me some sympathy for that at least.

Mood:  ANGRY  <— and thats the best we can do?  what the crap…
Music:  Blink182 – Pathetic

Pathetic
      – Blink182

I know I’m pathetic, I knew when she said it

A loser, a bum’s what she called me when I drove her home

There’s no more waiting and sure no more wasting

I’ve done all I can but she still wants to be left alone

You got, you got, you got to help me out

And I’ll try not to argue

No one, no one, no one likes a drop-out

Mistakes are hard to undo
Don’t pull me down, this is where I belong

I think I’m different, but I’m the same and I’m wrong

Don’t pull me down, this is where I belong

I think I’m different, this is where I belong
I think it’s disgusting, believing and trusting

If I gave a crap there would be nothing for me to prove

Although it’s amusing, it’s slightly confusing

I’ve done all I can but her ego is still hard to move
You got, you got, you got to help me out

And I’ll try not to argue

No one, no one, no one likes a drop-out

Mistakes are hard to undo
Don’t pull me down, this is where I belong

I think I’m different, but I’m the same and I’m wrong

Don’t pull me down, this is where I belong

I think I’m different, this is where I belong
Don’t pull me down, this is where I belong

I think I’m different, this is where I belong

So I just bought a new palm pilot, hard case, and foldable keyboard… I’ve been wanting to do this for MONTHS now… but I had to wait for the price to get down… I just bought the Palm M505… Normally it was 399, it dropped to 290 last month… then this weekend only (yesterday and today) was on sale for 199.  Yay for that.  The goal is to be able to take notes and stuff in class without writing… cuz I hate it… and I can type SO much faster.  With any luck, the keyboard will be REALLY loud and anoying to everyone else in class… heh heh heh…

Anywho, that should all be here next week or so.  The weekend went quick… I still have more to do that I didn’t get done.  Bah.  I’ll work on my report more today and hopefully get stuff done around here like, take out trash, change sheets, kick out the bums from the street corner… ya know… typical housekeeping stuff.

Sarah comes back in town tonight! YAY!   We’re gonna watch the wings game at 9pm on ESPN2!!!!  Freakin yeah for hockey!  I wonder how BG did this weekend in hockey…. no word from the battle front.

Ok, I’m off to the land of website updating, housekeeping, report writing, and crazy goat singin dance with funny hats on silly clown crazy kickin it hard style stuff.  Did ya get that?  Good.

Mood:  Alive and kickin.
Music:  Good Charlotte – Lifestyles of the Rich and the Famous

WORD.

Now… on with the entry.  It’s 3:10am on Friday night… I’m on duty for the entire 50 residents left in the frickin building… Fall Break and I have to work… ah well, it’s fun when no one is here cuz instead of sitting at the desk, you can play a game of pool… play playstation2 games… play guitar… make funny yelling noises and no one hears them… …. … heck… I spose you could even rip one hard and no one would be around to hear or smell it… …. dang… I shoulda done that!  oh well, I’m in my room about to go to sleep now.  Maybe next time.

Adam Marier and I did rounds tonight and it took a whole 15 minutes as opposed to 45… First set at 9:30pm we saw 3 people and heard music from 4 closed doors… Second set at 12:10am we saw nobody and heard nothing.  HAHAHAHAHA… I don’t know if that has ever happened.  Actually, I saw Matt…. but only cuz he was walking back from Jeff’s room (next door).  We DID have to key-in to a room and turn off an alarm clock though… ::sigh:: the joys of no one being here.

Later we called up Matt and Jeff and ordered pizza and played Tekken 4.  Then Rae, Joe, Amy, and some mystery guy showed up at 2:30am… why?  I don’t know… I think to say hi to Nadeau workin the front desk.  So we hung out till 3… then they left and I came up to go to bed and am now typing.  SO WITH THAT……… WORD!

Mood:  Relaxed.
Music:  Accoustic guitar by Brent, Joe, and Maverick.

Yeah so I’m on duty tonight (Wednesday night)… Tomorrow there aren’t any classes since it is Fall Break.  Anywho, back to the duty topic… I’m doing rounds with Caira (fellow RA) and there is NO ONE IN THIS BUILDING!  Out of 900 residents, we saw 9.  BOOOORING.  The few who ARE here, better not cause any trouble tonight… I want sleep.

Sarah is out bowling with her Bible Study and people from H2O… I’m thinkin bout doing laundry, and sitting on my butt.  Soooo tired.  New Palm Pilots come out Oct. 28th… that’s a plus… Then I can buy one and my life won’t be so unorganized and in disarray!  yay for that.  … … random topic… Sarah is going home tomorrow for Fall Break… I won’t see her again till Sunday night.    I’m gonna miss her, but hey, her mom told me that we’d share her before we ever even started dating… so props to the mom… it’s her turn.

Today = October 9th… Dashboard Confessional concert in 9 days… YEE HA!  I’m turning into a concert junkie for the end of this year…  Check it…

Oct. 18th – Dashboard Confessional in Detroit
Nov 19th – Counting Crows in Toledo
Nov 22nd – Trans-Siberian in Toledo

yay for music.  OK… I’m tired and it’s time to do laundry then sleep for a half hour.. then walk the deserted halls again… then more sleep… then say hi to sarah… then more sleep…

Mood:  Tired
Music:  Matchbox Twenty – Last Beautiful Girl

 YAY for fun talks about spiritual theological stuff with people at lunch… Both Friday and Monday (today) I had lunch with a bunch of different people…. Friday (Angie Bush, Sarah Kuntz, Matt Bigelow) and today (Sarah Nadeau, Matt Bigelow, Randy, Richie Dible, Jen Stoner).  We talked about God’s grace, temptation, wisdom, being living witnesses to the world, and other fun stuff.

Today Matt Bigelow actually understood my views on temptation and how we are to flee it instead of invite it to exercise our faith and God’s grace…  When we flee it we actually HONOR God more by showing that we love him enough to not put our self even CLOSE to the situation that could hurt him and us.  I’m glad I finally got through to him… He’s been struggling with where he stands on a lot of issues and this definitely is a major one.  He is a very cool guy though… reminds me of an old friend from back home… Justin Combs… if you’re readin this… I love you man!

Ok, now on with the show… so yeah, the weekend’s over.  Everyone is back from Fall Getaway.  I’m DANG tired still… so I’m about to crash for 2 hours before my next class.   yay for naps.  Sarah and I had a really cool time last night.  We watched “Bill and Ted’s Excellent Adventure” and just spent time together since we hadn’t seen each other in two days.  This is a shortened week for school due to fall break.  We have thursday and friday off, so Sarah is going home to see her family on thursday.  I’m glad she gets to go and stuff… but that means 4 more days away… boo….  ah well, we’ll survive.  “Absence makes the heart grow fonder” they say… … … then again… Barenaked Ladies say that “Absence makes the heart grow fungus.”  I guess we’ll hope for the first of the two…

I have my whole co-op report due on friday the 18th… that sucks… I forgot about it.  I’ll probably work on that over break since I’ll be here and everyone else is going home.  On the plus side, I’m on duty friday… HAHAHA… hopefully no one will be here and it’ll be a REAL easy night.

Ok… I gotta go sleep, my eyes hurt.  Till next time, love peace and hair grease.

Mood:  Tired but happy
Music:  Dashboard Confessional – A Plain Morning

OK… well, I have a new look to the site… I took one of the skins and then added my own links and removed other links… customized some stuff… hey, everyone’s at fall getaway so I had to do SOMETHING to stay entertained! 

Anyway, like I said, fall getaway for H2O is this weekend and I’m stuck NOT going again because CedarCreek is in the middle of a big push series…. DOH!  That always stinks for me.  I’m hoping to go next year though so I can at least experience what it is like before I graduate BGSU!  Speaking of that, I checked my degree audit and according to that, I have 18 classes to take before I can graduate yet… now… that doesn’t sound like many… but if you break it down… 4 next semester… that leaves 14 for my senior year.  Even if I DID go full time, that’s only 10. POOP!  That means I have to take 14 over the course of 2 years since I’m going to do my senior year part-time… that’s 7 classes per year… 3-4 per semester… DANG THAT’S ABOUT WHAT I’M TAKIN NOW!  crap crap crappity crap crap!  heh heh… bomb bomb bomb… bomb bomb bomb bomb… (that goes out to all the “Meet the Parents” fans)

ANYWAY, so I’m thinkin… WHAT IF I take 3 classes each semester of my senior year(s)… that eliminates 12 and leaves two left.  I could take those over the summer between my senior years!  YAY!  That way I’m still graduating in 5 years (2 of which being my senior year part-time).  Sounds like a plan.  ::sigh:: now to figure out what is offerred when… cuz I KNOW half of my classes aren’t even offered two out of the three times a year.  GRRR… scheduling sucks.  I wish the University would just look at my life and say… “yup… he can hold his own… give the man a degree.”  but NOoooooooooooooooooo…. instead I have to take “English 388 – Technical Writing” and “Tech 302 – Technological Systems in Today’s Society”……..  blah blah blah blah… GAG ME!  ah well… such is life… I’ll be outta here in 2005.  I’ll have no more time taken up by school.  No more time taken up by being an RA.  No more time taken up by campus stuff… ahhh… the free life… working 50 hours a week for CedarCreek…  Buy me a house… Marry me a good woman… Raise some kids… Grow some marijua…. ummm…. nevermind.

AND on that note, I’m going to bed.  It’s almost 4am.  To all you peeps who are at fall getaway, I’m prayin for ya.  Have fun.  Be safe.  Sarah, I miss ya… don’t make out with TOO many boys… Matt… have fun… don’t make out with TOO many boys… … … ummm…. yeah.  Night.

Mood:  Slaphappy
Music:  Jimmy Eat World – Sweetness